And You Finally See The Madness….
As I’m getting further and further into my recovery, I’m really starting to see the madness that is my eating disorder.
For many years I truly believed it was I who was mad. I couldn’t understand why I did the things I did,
why I felt so desperate at times.
But then I also didn’t see the utter control my eating disorder had over me. Over my mind and my actions.
I would just accept it was normal for me; that that was how my life was and always would be.
Thank goodness I was so wrong!
You see as I’m getting stronger and my vision is getting clearer, I can finally see and hear the madness without acting out the behaviours.
And although it’s scary to watch,
it’s wonderful to no longer play such a big part in it.
I say that because yes, I do still struggle; I have my ups and downs. If I didn’t I would be fully recovered.
But although not yet there, this is my journey and that is my destination.
So I guess I just wanted to say to those of you in the early stages of recovery;
Don’t give up!
You are not mad; you have an eating disorder.
And although it may seem that things will never become clear,
And to those of you already fully recovered;
I’ll see you soon J
And on this day; Valentines Day-
Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself you love you <3
With Extra Love, Smiles & Support,