Reflections...

And The Here And Now

This past week I have been reflecting a lot on life- my own and that of those I love.

A dear friend of mine lost her father last week and will today be saying her final goodbyes to him.

I can only try to imagine how difficult this time is for her.

36 years ago yesterday, my wonderful mum lost her own mother. Even after all this time, the pain she went through then is still raw.

10 years a go this week, I lost my granddad. Even though he was a grumpy bugger and I wasn’t around when he passed, I often think of him and miss him at times too.

I have just read on Facebook that another beautiful soul has lost her battle to anorexia- My heart goes out to her family at this terrible time.

Death, past a present is very much on my mind.

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It’s got me thinking about my own mortality and how close I’ve come at times to no longer being here. It’s made me look at my recovery and it’s importance to keeping it that way.

It scares me but I need to remind myself at times that eating disorders do kill.

They take away precious lives all too often;

I wont allow mine to be one of them.

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But I’ve also been thinking about the life that I do have- the here and now.

About how wonderful life can be if you allow it.

About how grateful I am for my loving family and amazing friends.

How utterly thankful I am that we are all here and we are all okay.

About how short life really is and how we have to make the most of it.

To really try and enjoy it’s wonders and do our best to keep moving forward, no matter what it throws at us.

My heart skips a beat when I think that at any moment I could loose all that I have.

Please, look after yourself and those you love and be sure to always tell them so.

With Much Love, Smiles & Support,

Hanna xx