I’m never going back!
Last week I celebrated my 25th birthday. The celebrations began at the weekend with my brother and his wife coming down and continued right through until Friday.
During this time there was lots of laughter, birthday cake, comedy nights, meals out with friends and family, a few drinkies and lots of fun! I think I can honestly say it was one of the best birthdays I’ve had.
Why? Beside the fact that everyone made it so special, one thing put the icing on the cake for me;
I was here to celebrate it.
This time last year I was in a very dark, lonely and dangerous place. At times I often wondered if I’d make it through until Christmas, let alone my next birthday. If I hadn’t sought treatment and had the full support of my family, I probably wouldn’t have.
This may sound dramatic but I only speak the truth.
Eating disorders kill and I was no exception.
I do feel a sense of sadness, for time & love lost and although my journey since has been very rocky and at times pretty scary, I can now look my eating disorder ‘straight in the eye’ and say;
“I’m never going back there!”
So I guess my post this week is one of gratitude.
For my wonderful family and friends and their ongoing love and support. For all the medical teams who have supported me and looked after my health. For my therapist who continues to push me but believe in me.
For myself, and having the courage to fight this.
Life is full of trials and tribulations, up’s and downs, good times and bad.
But whatever life throws at me,
I thank it.
For I value my life more than ever.
With Much love, Smiles & Support,